I'm on a big downer right now. The last few weeks have screwed me over badly and i'm feeling as low as trash. the events triggering this were as follows:

1. My birthday, usually a happy day where i can relax a bit and get some recognition. But I was told to get into work, even thought i applied for a holiday (they "misplaced" my 2 requests in under two weeks). It was a very shitty way to welcome my 19th in.

2. My club, The anime society, a club i helped get off the ground, recently had the AGM where the board was either elected or kept on. I couldn't attend due to work again, and told the current president my intentions to vote that night and said also that if no one challenged my chairman position, then i'd happily keep myself in the role. Next day i'm told that the club decided to elect 2 presidents and with no one challenging my position, they disolved the chairman role altogether, leaving me back at the lowest rank of subordinate.

3. University, usual tough shit, i know that that isn't just me.

But all these together have been making me consider my life and position in it. I know how tough it is for any single person to make an impact, but I'm just feeling so insignificant and weak, so much i'm thinking how useless i am and how now one cares if i'm there or not. I'm just a speck that hopes to get crushed just to end it.

Help.